❧ 2025-11-03 #
It makes me feel ill to observe how conditioned my brain is. All those arising impulses to check my phone, seek easy dopamine, scroll something. Or when less mindful, realising that my phone has been palmed and unlocked without awareness or conscious intent. It's scary to acknowledge how vulnerable we are to attention economy psy-ops, and to consider the degree of effort and vigilance required to challenge them even in our personal lives.
❧ 2025-11-02 #
A moment of thought: Resign yourself, learn (learn, forty-year-old) to rest content in the moment (yes, once you could do it). Yes, in the moment, the terrible moment. It is not terrible, only your fear of the future makes it so.
In his room I try to show my humility, which I cannot feel, by seeking out a ridiculous place for my hat, I lay it down on a small wooden stand for lacing boots.