books - fiction

• Accelerando, Charles Stross
• The Drowned World, J.G. Ballard
• Big Ballard fan, but this is probably top for me.
• Blindsight, Peter Watts
• The Lathe of Heaven, Ursula K. Le Guin
• Our Man in Havana, Graham Greene
• Money, Martin Amis
• More than any shock factor 4channer self-publication or Bret Easton Ellis torture porn crap, this disgusted me. A truly horrible book.
• The Culture novels, Peter Watts (all of them)
• Siddharta, Herman Hesse
• Only read this after I'd been practicing for about 5 years, which was probably appropriate timing. Hesse got it.

books - mysticism, buddhism

• Thoughts Without A Thinker: Psychotherapy From a Buddhist Perspective, Mark Epstein
• Highly recommended to anyone pursuing both mystic insight and ego-focused self-work (which pair really, really well).
• Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha: An Unusually Hardcore Dharma Book, Daniel Ingram
• Probably a good introduction to the Pragmatic Dharma movement. Rigorous explanation of the dukkha nanas (insight knowledges), which earlier awareness of would have been rather reassuring at times. Freely available here.
• The Book of Not Knowing, Peter Ralston
• 600 pages on you not existing and thinking being not that great actually. Highly recommended.
• Memories, Dreams, Reflections, Carl Jung
• A pleasure, and an encouragement (oh, it really isn't just me?), to read such a candid and well-observed account of an active inner life.

video games

Disco Elysium, Cruelty Squad, Rimworld, Factorio, Fallout 1 & 2 & New Vegas, ULTRAKILL, Quake, Dusk

films

• Brazil, Terry Gilliam (1985)
If pressed, my favourite film.
• Apocalypse Now, Francis Ford Coppola (1979)
• I'm fascinated by narratives which feature tandem progressions of physical journeys and psychological degradation. I watched this on acid once. Went surprisingly well.
• Dawn of the Dead, George A. Romero (1978)
• One of my childhood comfort movies. I taped a television broadcast, and watched it repeatedly.

music

Try here.