sad mammal | About ya' boi

thirtysomething autist idiot

likes:

torturing myself by pondering the mysteries of consciousness, ongoing biosphere/climate collapse and their implications
pretending i understand and appreciate culture and fancy thoughts
meditation, mindfulness, spirituality and mysticism
substance abuse (🐎🌌)
silly video games (Disco Elysium, ULTRAKILL, Rimworld...)
not being trusted with the aux 🎶

things i like

Thoughts Without A Thinker: Psychotherapy From A Buddhist Perspective - Mark Epstein
exploration of Buddhism's astute understanding of human psychology, and its deep synergies with modern Western psychotherapy
Neuromancer - William Gibson
the original cyberpunk. often imitated, rarely bettered, still holds up pretty well
Accelerando - Charles Stross
mindbending narrative ketamine delusion trip through Stross' thoughts about technological singularity and its effects. a hard read, mediocre characterisation, but highly conceptually engaging
The Lathe of Heaven - Ursula K. Le Guin
why do we seem to be incapable of improving things?
The Drowned World - J.G. Ballard
i'm generally a big Ballard fan, but this is probably my favourite of his novels. ties my fascination for journeys involving psychological deterioration in with evolutioanry regression, and climate catastrophe. disgusting, compelling ideascape

I'll Try Living Like This - Death's Dynamic Shroud (2015)

Tales of Mystery and Imagination - The Alan Parsons Project (1976)

prog concept album (about the Poe collection of the same name)

All Screwed Up, Vol. II - DJ Screw (1995)

All These People Are Me - Solareye (2018)

Wilderness - Makeup and Vanity Set (2015)

Arkhaiomelisidonophunikheratos - Satanicpornocultshop (2010)

Brazil - Terry Gilliam (1985)
such a trip. i'll say you can tell Gilliam was strongly influenced by Thatcherism/neoliberalism and leave it at that
Apocalypse Now - Francis Ford Coppola (1979)
i'm generally fascinated by narratives involving journeys which cause progressive psychological degradation. particularly journeys along rivers, for some reason - perhaps their relative linearity

Cruelty Squad
a very ugly (in any regard you can imagine), cynical and philosophical cyberpunk imsim. with fishing
Disco Elysium
game about how hard it is to be a person. wonderful worldbuilding and themes, very funny, sad, cathartic
Rimworld
the best war crime simulator